I don’t care about myself. I know how hard life is. I want to be there for you..
I don’t exactly want to kill myself but if something happened to kill me i wouldn’t mind
All the things I can’t say to you
Wether you want to admit it or not the truth is I will be the only person that will ever stick around no matter how many times you screw up. I mean lets be honest our relationship started on a trip where you sexually harassed me. I should have never spoken to you after that and to be honest I don’t know why I did. But something in me saw more then anyone else did. After that you continued to disappoint me by breaking up with me after four months together two consecutive times within two years. Why I went back to you after you were happily with another girl no one will ever know but I missed you and needed to feel like I ever meant something to you. I guess I don’t though, even though you tell me you want me in your life any way you can get me. ( which I feel the same). You just have a way of making me extremely happy then finding a way to take it all back and leaving me worse then i ever was. What my friends don’t get is that no matter how many times you break my heart and no matter how many times they tell me you’re no good for me, not even the amount of days I cry myself to sleep because of you will make me stop talking to you. Because under all the hurt you’re the only thing that makes me realize why I am still alive when I was ready to end it all I met you and since then I’ve never felt the same. I’ve become so comfortable with you that I’m not afraid to tell you anything. From when I’m having the best day of my life or the worst day I always want to tell you what’s going on. I can tell you things that I can’t even tell my friends. And when I’m so down that I just can’t see living another day you have a way of saying something to make me feel strong. And vise versa. I just don’t understand how two people can be so perfect for each other but so not. You do drugs but I don’t care cause you are my drug. And all of the bad things you will ever do could never make me hate you. You’ve become my best friend and I don’t want that to change.
